That Moment of Pre Departing

Hai semua! Sehat? Semoga. 

Aku lagi nonton, kalian lagi apa?

Hari ini serasa puncak galau, masalah numpuk sampe bingung mau tulis masalah yang mana dulu. Mulai dari persiapan aja kali ya. Baca post ku yang sebelumnya kan? Ok jadi ceritanya aku di rumah tinggal sekitar 3 minggu lagi, atau mungkin aja 2. Persiapan makin berat, buku bacaan makin banyak, skill training makin rumit, dan banyak masalah yang lain-lain. Kemarin Argentina ku juga habis kalah di piala dunia, jadi makin galau /gak juga sih/. Lanjut. Aku udah bilang ini berkali-kali tapi belum bosen, ini bener-bener gak sesimpel apa yang aku pikir dulu. Bahkan makin deket berangkat (terlepas dari rasa seneng yang aku rasain), ini kerasa makin galau luar biasa. Kalo boleh cerita, aku malah belum nyiapin koper. Abal? Lumayan. Student handbook juga belum aku baca habis, tapi ya, masih ada waktu. Berbekal bahasa inggris dengan grammar ngawur ngidul, sekarang lagi nyiapin presentasi tentang Bali. Yang paling menggalaukan ya kiriman paket tadi sore, kostum tari. Narinya sih udah lumayan bisa, tapi ini nih pake kostumnya yang rumit abis. Belum belajar make up pula. Intinya persiapan ini galau. Galau segalau-galaunya. Harus mengabadikan galau di post ini, tahun depan waktu udah balik pengen liat ekspresi nginget-nginget kalo hari ini galau!! Semangat widyaa!!!

Tari Panji Semirang - Bali

Hari ini masalah gak selesai sampe di persiapan. Dunia serasa gak pengertian. Masalah dateng bergantian. Kemarin malem gak tidur semaleman gara-gara mau nonton bola. Padahal tadi pagi hari pertama sekolah, alhasil mata sipit seharian. Bukan itu masalah utamanya. Jadi tadi ngerasa dijauhin temen, seorang temen. Entah kenapa, mungkin ada fitnah atau salah paham. Entahlah. Jadi agak males aja sih, tapi bodo amat deh ya. Masih lebih galau soal perasaan aja. Pernah denger istilah PHP? Ya, pemberi harapan palsu. Menurutku sih gak ada yang namanya php. Orang yang ngerasa ter-php, mungkin cuma dianya aja yang terlalu naruh harapan. Kayak aku, sedikit. Galau ya, tapi ini lagi on my process moving on. Give me power to do this, God... #alay #tapidikit

Udah mulai ngawur? Ga apalah. Masih ada masalah satu lagi. Charger. Ini udah kayak common problem banget buat aku. Untuk ke-4 kalinya charger hp rusak, sedangkan untuk ke-5 kalinya charger laptop rusak. Parahnya, rusaknya samaan. Parahnya lagi, lagi perlu banget sama laptop buat ngerjain proposal sama presentasi. Seandainya raja neptunus dengan wajah malaikat tiba-tiba dateng bawain charger tahan banting anti rusak seumur hidup (Albert Einstein; imajinasi lebih penting dari kepintaran). Gak ngerti sih kenapa charger rusak mulu, perasaan aku pakenya biasa aja. Mungkin ini salah stop kontaknya. Ya, pasti stop kontaknya yang salah!!

Ini udah makin ngaco. Mungkin otak udah kebelet pengen tidur, well it's 00.06 here now. Write more later. Good bye everyone, good night and have a nice dream!

(Here's a last quote for today..)

I'm a YES Candidate!

I still can't believe that I will leave for USA in 4 weeks!!! Wanna know what I feel? Well it's actually undescribed. I feel excited, happy, sad, shocked, nervous, confused and many other feelings at once. It's excited and happy of having a chance to study abroad, but it's sad to leave a lot of people here, and it's nervous to live in a country which is really different from my own, then it's confusing to think of what should be prepared. Thus, that 4 weeks is such a very short time left, isn't? *heavy breathing* *God, take my soul now*

I mean to make this blog as a diary when I'm gone. Well this started about a year ago, when the first time I heard about the AFS and YES Program then got really excited and tried to participate. The Kennedy-Lugar Youth Exchange and Study (YES) program, funded by the U.S. Department of State, provides scholarships for secondary school students (age 15-17) from countries with significant Muslim populations to spend one academic year in the United States. Scholarships for the YES Abroad program are also available to U.S. citizens attending high school (age 15-18) to spend one academic year in select countries.

You should know! At first I never imagined that I'm going to be the final candidate. I really learned that nothing is impossible as long as we would like to try. I've passed couples steps of tests since last year, such as general knowledge test, interview test, SLEP test, and many more (can be googled if you want to know about the tests in detail). Yay this is my first time of leaving my beloved country, Indonesia. Sounds great? Not at all, I feel so much nervous. And yepp...I got some books for my preparation before leaving!

Orientation book, student handbook, and other documents.

By the time of my departure become closer, the more I feel that this is not as simple as what I thought at first. Well, I've proceed my passport and interviewed for visa, but there are still a lot of things need to be prepared. My worst problem now is; I'm not really confident with my English and I feel like...I'm gonna die. Now I'm preparing traditional clothes, dancing costumes, gifts, and YAY I didn't yet buy a suitcase for my luggage, and didn't yet learn about how to make up as a Balinese Dancer. The time goes, it's 3 weeks left, and some things weren't complete prepared yet. Weird, isn't?

Besides, I can't lie that it's really hard to leave a lot of people here. I didn't go yet but I just feel like I can imagine how homesick is like. Would really miss how parents being my both mood boosted and breaker, my grumpy sister, my innocent brother, and lovely friends. But then I remember whether life is a choice, and we should be wise to choose our way :)) Well, I'm starting of writing absurd things.

Don't know anymore what to write, before it becomes worse maybe it's better to me to end this writing. READY OR NOT, USA I'M COMING!!!